In a world of 'Can't'

I have come to realize another problem associated with weight loss and the mental aspect involved.  When you go to restaurants (at least for myself) and I see people ordering the stuff I want, and I know I shouldn't have it, I view it as if I 'can't' have it.  So, I order it just to prove to myself (?) that I can have it, and enjoy it as well.  Not that this is wrong, but when you do it every time you run into my current weight problem.  Saying no to food is like a crack addict saying no to crack.  My addiction is harder than drugs though... I HAVE to eat, I can't just cut food out of my life.  I have to learn to control it, where a crack addict is provided the opportunity to cut the problem completely out of their life.

Provided we are in a snow storm, boredom also takes a huge hit on the need to feed.  Here I sit, with 16 points left for the day, and bored... so I want to feed my face.  I need a new hobby...

Through the bad times, there are good.

So, this weekend was another bad weekend... in one day I consumed 75 points.  That was the day of my Uncles Memorial service.  I am now ready to move on, remember and celebrate his life, and get back on my journey.

In better news I actually LOST this week!!!!  YAY!!!  I now weigh 203.6, and my calculator celebrated by deducting a point too.

Now I am only allowed 30 points a day... 29 is the lowest allowed, so I assume that will be nest week.

Someone calculated out what my 10% goal is, and that is 11 pounds.  I am only 2 lbs shy of my 10% goal!

Here's to a new week of delicious food, and good decisions.

Starting weight:  212
Current weight:  203

Daily allowed points: 30
Weekly allowed: 49

Life Happens

That is how my sister, D, puts it.  Last week was a bad week, if you couldn't tell from my lack of posts.

On Wednesday night I was informed that my Uncle did not have much time with us... so I went on thursday to spend the afternoon with him.  All they had were cookies and chips.  I ate two cookies... then he passed away this last weekend.  Needless to say, I have NO clue what I consumed point-wise.  So, I re-weighed myself to find that I gained back 2 of the 5 lbs I lost.  BUT I am still down from my start point.

Here is my point to this post, I went right back to the program.  It is easy to get distracted, because "Life Happens."  But, it is just as easy to get back into the program.

Being 11 pm I am going to bed and will be much better tomorrow.

Sweetwater Tavern, not so sweet after all

Yesterday was a bad day for me, point wise that is.  I had my breakfast, and an early lunch because I was meeting a friend for a late lunch that evening.  One problem, as a dieter, that I have is portion control.  If it is there, I will eat it.  Hoping to battle the hunger cry, I ate a bowl of veal stew my MIL made that was a total of 12 points, I did this to hopefully eat less when I went out with my girlfriend.  We planned on meeting up at Sweetwater Tavern in Centreville, VA.  I googled, and googled, and googled even more... just to get nutritional information that they apparently refuse to offer.  That's right, they do NOT offer nutritional information to the public online.  To avoid the embarrassment of asking this nicer establishment for their nutritional information, I chickened out and ordered a salad anyway.  I tried to order wisely, so I ordered the Roast Chicken Salad.  While it was delicious, it did have corn, cheese, and other items that I knew had a point value to them.  And, like any other dieter would, I ate the whole thing.

After seeing the salad, and consulting my books forever, I decided the point value would be around 13 points... plus to be safe, I would rather give it a higher point value than a lesser one.  I had yet to have dinner, and after that salad I had consumed my 31 points.  So, I gave up, kinda.  I still had a Smart Ones dinner for 6 points, and I had two deserts for 7 points.

As for deserts, I had the Smart Ones Mint Ice Cream, and the Quaker Chocolate Rice Cakes.  Both are delicious, but I really liked the rice cakes, and they were filling!  13 cakes for 4 points, and it tasted like Chocolate Pebbles cereal.

DAILY POINTS USED: 43
WEEKLY POINTS LEFT: 37

Bed is always the solution

Last night, my daughter woke up and would not lay back down.  So off to bed with us she went.  The bonus to this... I lay there watching her fall back asleep, until I can put her back into her crib; therefore, I'm not eating!  The downside... I was up until 12:30 when I was finally able to put her back into her crib.

DAILY POINTS USED: 26 (lots of salad though)
WEEKLY POINTS LEFT: 49

Travels of Asia

Tonight we made the Wegmans Travels of Asia, Stir Fry Beef with Udon Noodles for dinner.  There are only 2 servings in the bag, and each serving is 7 points.  While it was good food, I was left wanting more.  Again, I am eating a 2 point salad!  This is great if you want a small dinner, the portion was about 1 cup in size.  Although, if you paired it with a salad to begin with, this would be a great meal.  The downside to these meals though, is they have to be cooked on the stovetop.  Nick cooked this tonight, while I fed the twins.  I have 5 points remaining for the day, and I am certain they will get eaten.

On that note, since I lost 5 lbs, I also lost one point a day.  Last week I was allowed 32, now I am allowed 31 points.  I am certain the goal of this is to gradually get you down to the minimum points allowed, 29, but  as I go down in points, finding foods that fit into that daily allotment will be difficult.  This is where the weekly bonus points come in to play.  I am happy to have those extra points, but if I am already eating them, shouldn't I just start at 29?  I will do the program the way it is designed, so that I can track my progress, but thank goodness for those extra points!

I am done with my salad... time for a fruit as I am still hungry from my less than satisfying day.

Healthy Choice, Hungry later...

So I picked up a Healthy Choice Steamer to try out for lunch, because it's healthy, right?  I was surprised to see it was worth 9 points, when I could have had Fettuccini Alfredo for 6 points from the Smart Ones.  Oh, well, there was more food in it, so I ate it anyways.  While the sauce is delicious, there is very little of it.  There was only 3 pieces of chicken, and a ton of rice.  All those carbs equal to the 9 points, but you would think it would be more filling.  I am still hungry, and I am about to make a salad for myself.  In the future I am going to shy away from the less-filling freezer food, and stick with the more filling stuff.

Oh, and the salad will add two more points so, lunch will be 11 points... not worth it.  I have a feeling I will hit those bonus points today!